Today was a good day even though not much happened. I thought I had an online lecture, but it didn’t happen because of midterms. Now I’m watching The Half of It on Netflix. Leah Lewis is also a Chinese adoptee and I’m glad that a story like this is out. I’ve heard mixed reviews, but I like it so far.

I got up late today and basically just went grocery shopping. I need to buy sunscreen, so I went to the different beauty stores near my goshiwon and tried some out. I didn’t end up buying any, but I’ll do some more research. I walked to 청량리 시장 and bought some apples and other produce. I miss shopping with my friends. I spend a lot more time alone here than I usually do.

My mom is still having health problems at home. I wish I could magically make everything fine. I wish I had a clear idea of what next year would look like. Who I would be with. Where I would live. What kind of happy days I would experience. Where my mom would be and where my sister would travel.

Tomorrow I have another architecture one-on-one. I wish the class would stay online, but I’m not sure when we’ll start meeting in-person yet. I don’t know what else I want to do. Midterms weren’t horrible. I turned in my essay for Irish Literature and I feel pretty good about it. I also finished my Korean interview yesterday. I always get so awkward when I speak, so he kept asking me if I was nervous. But I think I did alright at least.

I hung out with my language exchange partner the other day, too. She helped me study for my midterm and we’re also meeting on Saturday to hang out. I really appreciate her help. On one hand I want to meet more people, but on the other I kind of want to enjoy my solitary time. But it does get lonely sometimes.

Yesterday I went to an art gallery with my friend from college. The artist was really nice and gave us free postcards. We went to dinner after and just walked around. I miss having Kelsey or my other friends around. I miss living with friends.

I’m half way through The Half of It and I like it. Maybe because the setting hits close to home or because I like Leah Lewis. It’s only 10 here, but I feel like five years have passed in one day. I hope I can call my sister soon. Today I just feel heavy for some reaosn.