Halloween won’t be too festive this year, unfortunately. Maybe Kelsey and I will make some pastries or cookies, but we don’t have any big plans. I have a Korean language course I’ll go to in the morning and I’ll probably just work on my internship and homework after that. The Korean language course is very relaxed, but the teacher is nice. He is a Korean adoptee who majored in Chinese, but he also studied abroad in Korea. He lives in the same state I do.

I keep hoping that someday I’ll wake up filled with motivation and the drive to do everything on my to-do list. But that likely won’t happen and I end up being filled with anxiety while I watch YouTube to distract myself. So, I go and do the tasks I need to do, even though I don’t feel like it. The lack of motivation is hard this semester, but I know that I’ll get through it now and in the future. You don’t have to want to do a task to get started on it. You just have to know that it’ll be better for you in the future.

I updated the resources section of the blog with a few accounts I like to watch about financial literacy. It’s not much, but they helped introduce me to things my family didn’t have experience with. The more I think about financial stability the more I worry. I’ve always worried, though. I used to ask my mom every time we went to the grocery store if we had enough money to buy food, even in early elementary school. It’s hard to break out of that money anxiety. But life has to be more than just financial assets and I’m grateful that I have people around me who make me feel secure, regardless of my background. I will be alright.