I can’t sleep at night! I wake up every few hours unsure of what to do and if moving is really the right decision for me. I’ve talked to my mom and a few friends and they all say that it’s okay to not have everything figured out for the next five years. But I desperately want to. I wish I knew for sure where I would be and who my friends would be and what kind of job would fulfill me. But I don’t and that keeps me up. My chest hurts. It feels like there is a sinking weight in the middle of it. Am I pigeonholing myself into teaching?

Some general goals:

• Find a job that I can at least tolerate and be financially stable in
• Feel like I’m making a difference or doing something good with my life
• Live somewhere where I feel like I’m part of a community/family
• Live somewhere with good public transportation
• Continue making art in some capacity
• Continue to grow and learn (in a formal classroom setting or not)
• Visit China at some point
• Establish a savings plan for retirement
• Have an emergency fund
• Stay physically and mentally healthy
• Develop a better relationship with my family
• Learn how to not feel like I’m wasting my time while I’m still unsure of what to do/be nicer to myself